Reclusion

"I want to be independent in life"..this is the statement given by almost everyone of us as soon as we tend to realize that we have grown up. But everyone of us has a different connotation of 'being independent'. After completing my school, I had no choice but to part with my parents to study in a reputed university. Yes i know it sounds very alluring, living in a PG, going college, converging with people,taking your decisions independently and what not. It seems as if you are going to live your life in the best possible way. I was happy,excited ,anxious..everything was vivaciously active in me on one side and on the other side my heart was solicitously nervous. The idea of leaving my parents behind was freaking me up. But as it was the only option,I was helpless.

I would not say that migrating in this way has not helped me in any manner. It definitely made me a person who I never thought I could be. I had never dealt with any situation,be it a complicated one or the simplest of all without my parents. They were always there to guide me,help me and pamper me. But now I had to do it all alone. The hardest of all for me was to wake up on time for college. And believe me it still is. My mother's bluster had to be replaced by a stupid cranky alarm tone,which proved to be much more irritating and an unsuccessful replacement.  After this next to impossible task came the most interesting one..........'cooking!' This was the only thing I enjoyed. Although I knew the basics but cooking the entire meal and serving it to others was a completely overwhelming experience.

Between all this tussle,you start experiencing and learning simultaneously. I met many people,I made friends and each one of them had an impressive quality which made me admire them.I enjoy being with them.Laughing,shouting,yelling,and screwing with each other until the end of it makes you forget for a while that there is something missing in your life.

It has been almost two years..Life appears to be perfect now but sadly it is not. Its a superficial happiness that surrounds me all the time. I have learnt how to adjust with people. I know how to ignore the deceptive ones. I came to know that people are not always how they appear to be. You cannot completely surrender your feelings or your emotions to someone,you have to be careful in choosing your friends,your companions. They really matter. This is the place where i have suffered the hardest and at the same time lived to the fullest. The void inside my heart can never be filled. The idea of going back home fills my heart with joy. The complete bliss for me is the shadow of my parents, their care,their support and their love.


P.S : mom dad, despite the fact that we are not together everyday,I know you both are always there for me and i would never let you down. I MISS YOU....